My fabulous weekend

Hi everyone!

I went to Exeter Thursday last week, sooo warm down there, like a dimwit i only took Jeans and tops with me!

Went into the city and found the most gorgeous pair of shoes to go with my coral dress but when i got to the cash desk i noticed they were marked - apprentley they are supposed to be like that but it looked stupid so i refused to buy them!

I did however buy a new top from new look (which then got a hole in it within 1 day of wearing it, not happy!) and a maxi dress from next

I did get 2 pairs of shoes from New Look but took them back the next day after the top incident, dont want the heel breaking on me!

Me and Ben came back to Notts on Sunday (4 hours in a hot car, not good!)

Spent yesterday walking around a tourist attraction farm in Nottinghamshire, Me, Ben and my daughter went on the go karts - Ben took a corner too fast and nearly killed himself (ok, bit dramatic but you get the idea lol) then spent the rest of the day in the garden and actually wore a coral long top (the one from ASOS) and a pair of Denim shorts (Tesco, £12, bargin!) and a pair of flip flops ive had laying around and never actually worn!

Had such a nice time with Ben, sad to see him leave this morning.

Today im slumming it (but getting better!)

I have my horrid trainers on, A pair of dark bootcut jeans, a black vest top, a bead necklace i brought in New look and my funky ribbon bracelets - apart from the trainers i feel quite trendy lol

I'm desperatley in need of some nice sandals/flip flops to wear as mine are a bit erm . . . horrid!!!

Hope your all ok and have a brill day

Me xx

I've been really cr*p - I'm sorry!!

Hi everyone,

REALLY sorry i havent been around much - No excuse for it.

Ok, whats happened in my life since I last blogged:

Well im still seeing Ben, Ex has met him a few times now and is fine with Ben being around our DD. I'm going down to Exeter on Thursday, he is then coming back to Nottingham on Sunday with me then staying till Tuesday and getting train home.

I'm going to see a medium on 4th June too - She's REALLY good (whether you believe in this stuff or not, its my choice)

Ben is going to Scotland with me at the end of June to visit my family - He'll probably get third degree, poor sod!

This month is ROBIN HOOD Month in Nottingham so I am taking Ben to see Nottingham castle, They have LOADS of events so if your near, check it out!

I havent seen the new robin hood movie but russell crowe was said he based his accent on a "yorkshire man" - IDIOT

I saw "my sisters keep" for the first time the other day - my god DO NOT WATCH THIS IF YOU HAVE KIDS its awful :'(

I've been buying clothes, more essentials than "one wear" ("one wear" as in - Fashionable right now and never wearable again! lol)

Today I've brought:

Longline top In black and coral (I do want to stay away from Black/White but im too used to them but coral's a new colour!)

Leggins

Dress (again - new colour!)

Also brought 2 pairs of boot cut jeans from next and:

BLACK Sandals

Black Ballerina's

Also brought a superdry jumper but cant find a picture of it!

Hope your all ok - will try and keep on top of this!

Me xx

It's been a while!

Sorry for the delay!!

It has been rather hectic around here - Im constantly on FB though!

Personal life is on the up - I'm eating again but i do want to lose a bit mroe weight so diet starts today. Must try and drink more water.

Been seeing a guy called Ben who is fantastic, really makes me smile and get butterflies which is great - known him for 9 yeas and yes, probably is a bit too soon after my ex but you kow what - he knows the situation so  . . . .

Went down to Exeter last weekend - Just for the day on Sunday, Got a speeding ticket on the way down (I know i know!) me and Ben caught the train to Dawlish on Sunday, spent a few hours wandering around there, went to check train times back to Exeter and . . . it was 3 hours later! ah all good fun. I'm going to see him Thursday and he's coming back to Notts with me on Friday and staying till Tuesday - gonna be great. DD wont be around, she's with her dad at the W.E then off to my mums for a bit.

Went shopping at the weekend, brought these:

http://www.newlook.com/browse/productDetail.jsp?icProduct=180646471&icCategory=cat20002&icSort= (in Pink and cream - £5 each!)

http://www.newlook.com/browse/productDetail.jsp?icProduct=182568701&icCategory=cat620004&icSort= (black)

http://www.dorothyperkins.com/webapp/wcs/stores/servlet/ProductDisplay?beginIndex=100&viewAllFlag=false&catalogId=20552&storeId=12552&categoryId=178015&parent_category_rn=88619&productId=1575201&langId=-1 (ok so i dont actually have this one - its VERY similar though - same colours and pattern but its a tank top and doesnt have the detail at the top)

(i got a red scarf from claires accessories to wear with this too!)

http://www.dorothyperkins.com/webapp/wcs/stores/servlet/ProductDisplay?beginIndex=0&viewAllFlag=true&catalogId=20552&storeId=12552&categoryId=51603&parent_category_rn=51602&productId=1612457&langId=-1

http://www.newlook.com/browse/productDetail.jsp?icProduct=192665701&icCategory=cat490048&icSort=-myBestSellerScore (in black)

and i also got:

http://www.cult.co.uk/detail_view.aspx?pid=9I09wtjxAt0MpopM for when its cold at night


Anyway!

I think thats you all caught up

Hope your all ok

Me xx

My weekend

Ok - Dont want to go into everything on here! Date went ahead, was lovely though and we sorted a lot of the worries out. difficult when its a friend!

Exeter is LOVELY, such a nice place. Weather wasnt as hot as i would have liked but hey - its march, cant expect miracules!

Things are starting to look up i think

Me xx

Why do we bother ladies?

Grrr . . . .man rant! I’m supposed to be going on my date this weekend and my date keeps changing his mind about whether we should go or not. its pi$$ing me off BIG TIME. Last convo we had was that it was "on" so I’ve sent a text this morning with a basic message of "I need to know for definite as I need to make arrangements for DD and can’t keep changing plans as my mum won’t have her for me again"

Waiting on a reply.

I've also had an allergic reaction to some medicine the doctor has given me, it’s a form of deodorant - and its BURNING. I've got bright red marks under my arms, have tried to wash it off but it’s still stinging.

My other mum got buried yesterday, was a catholic service and I was fine - didn’t cry and held it together really well

Got my 6 month review at work today and I’m dreading it :(

Hope your all ok

Take care and I shall update you as to whether or not my weekend plans change . . AGAIN!!

My friends are FABULOUS

Well, yesterday me and my friend decided to enter Race for Life in memory of my other mum. Uploaded a link to my donation page and it asked for a "target" so i thought, recession, not many people will want to donate much - So i set my target for £100.

I checked online this morning - Its at £75 already with 7 dontations! Have now upped the target to £200!

I think its fantastic that people are dipping in their pockets (even if it is only to see whether i can run the 3 miles lol)

I had a bad day yesterday - I've been quite snappy with my friends and not all of them understand that im lashing out because of everything i've had going off but the ones who are sticking around are the best friends i could have asked for. I thought i had accidentley took too many thyroxine tablets yesterday but havign checked i didnt - took the correct dosage! Also did a lot of bank reviews - me and DD will be just fine! (Money was a huge worry for me!)

I feel a bit calmer today than i did yesterday - think i got most of the stressfulness out so should be back to my jolly nutty self today :)

hope your all havign a BRILLIANT day :) xx

Sponsor me please!

hi everyone,

Short and sweet - As you all know my other mom died last week - I've entered in this years race for life.

Please show your support, dig deep and sponsor me

http://www.raceforlifesponsorme.org/alanamonington

Will the gossips please fine someone else to talk about right now

urgh yesterday evening turned into a disaster!

When we had all the girls around i was explaining that me and J hadn't been getting on (for well over 2 years) and although we tried to make it work, its not happening and we've broken up. I have a friend who ive liked for ages but have never ever done anything with him. Well, we're both single now and we're going on a date at the end of the month. I promised J when i started seeing someone serious i would tell him - and because this is only a date i didnt tell him to spare his feelings.

ANYWAY - one of the girls at the party blabbed to my sister (who im not close to and who hates me with a vengance) and my sister told my brother who then told me. It went from "date" to "affair" very quickly in this game of chinese whispers and i was worried it would get back to J.

Tried to go the right thing, rang my friend, explained what had happened and asked if I could tell J (I expected J to say something to my friend and wanted to give him the heads up) so then i had to tell J. Its the worst thing ive ever had to do. He hates me now. Says ive broken his heart, he cant believe ive gotten over him so quickly (tbh me and him havent been right for years so i dont know why this is a shock for him) and a few other choice words.

I reallt didnt want J finding out like this and now feel awful :(

Why do people gossip? Whats the point in it?!

Alana x

(you know this new blogging style - wheres spell checker?)

ouch! that hurts!

Firstly - Thanks everyone for the replies regarding my other mum - Im ok, lost a bit of weight through stress and not sleeping well but im glad she is no longer in pain and knew how much she ment to me, Funerals next week and i think that will be difficult

Secondly - My friends and me went POLE dancing yesterday! (if my other mum could see me she'd be fuming! she waqs very religious - not only would she disagree with the pole dancing but doing it on a sunday! i'd be in so much trouble)

Well i managed to do a fair amount of moves and it was great having a giggle with the girls. We was dancing for an ho9ur and 30 min and it isnt sleezy at all! its ballet with a pole! However, I have a blood blister on the bottom of my food, loads of bruising on my legs and my arms, stomach and shoulder blades are aching!

Does anyone else do this for exercise? I think i need some pads for the bottom of my feet - any suggestions? need to wear low socks as i need flesh showing to grip thhe pole

Im in court tomorrow - witness to an alledged incident (not alledged at all - other party is lying through their teeth!) so hopefully they will see through the lies and come to the correct conclusion.

Slumming it today clothes wise - Uggs, Jeans, t-shirt from asda (paris one so kinda fashionable) and my big black cardi as im freezing but refuse to put the heating on!

Doing well with my make up - havent made myself look orange yet!

still having man problems!  Ex still acting like we are together but we've had a talk and hopefully he'll stop crowding me soon.

Hope you are all ok and i will try and check in soon xx

Farewell "mom"

My other mom died this morning.

I got a phone called at 07:15 to tell me of her passing. I've had my cry and for some stupid reason I convinced myself I needed to come to work so thats where I am, Sat at my desk, wondering what the hell am I doing. I suppose its better than sitting at home and getting upset?

I went to see her twice in the hospice yesterday. The nurses said she was able to hear me but wasnt  really with it so I told her i loved her asked what I was going to do without her and told her I would look after her husband. Said that everyone has been to see her and thats some comfort - we all had our goodbyes.

I've been and got a sympathy card for her family - Just simply wrote "Nothing I can say will ease the pain, Thank you for sharing her with me. Always near if you need me, Love Always"

Not really sure what else to put here so this will be a short post.

RIP "mom" you were the best - love you

Alana

yup - DEFINATLEY addicted

When was the last time you left your phone at home whilst you went out? Or the last time you turned your phone off? I couldnt tell you the answer to either of those questions right now. I seriously think i'm addicted to technology! how did i ever live in the 1990's without my phone?! Can you remember when they we're bricks and you was lucky if yours recieved picture messages? I have a Blackberry at the moment and theres the usual rubbish on there - The friend you never text unless your bored - The friends who text you when THEIR bored. But i've also got Twitter on there, Facebook, my hotmail email account, BBC news web page, google, a translator programme (i do use this occasionally!) and then random things like a timetable for the tube (i live in Nottingham for gods sake! why did i download this!)

I constantly check my phone for texts/calls/emails/messages and i seriously think im having withdrawal symptoms. There is nothing worse waiting on THAT person to text you - it makes you look at your phone even more!

Did you know that legally, a mobile phone company only need to test the radiation from a handset to the standards of a 15 degree angle. So when i'm slobbing in bed on my silly o'clock phone calls to THAT person im probably killing my limited brain cells with the radiation because, who, ACTUALLY holds their phone when their laid down? (I cant be the only person to talk on the phone in bed surely?) I'm quite bad at answering the phone when im in the bath too lol

I always say im going to have a mobile free day - and i never actually do. I always come up with an excuse. "oh but DD's nursery might call me if she's poorly" (they have my work number . . .!) "but it might be something important" (in which case, they have my mums number . . .!) currently I'm waiting on the dreaded call regarding my other mum but I would like to be able to say that I will leave my phone alone after this time.

I was addicted to facebook - not so more. I'd like to delete my profile but its the only way I keep in touch with online buddies and to be honest, I have pictures on there that I wouldnt see if my profile wasnt there.

I read once that there are celebrities who are technophobics. I have no idea how they go on with their day to day lives without these small pieces of wires and cables and plastic cases!

What is it with trends that make them so compulsive?

Here are a few trends from the past - how many of you were compelled to join in "just because"

1980's

Cabbage Patch Kids (WHY?!)
Jelly Shoes (making a come back on small kids!)
Doc Martin shoes
Parachute pants!
Happy Sacks

1990's

The Macerana  (that ANNOYING dance you just HAVE to do at parties)
Beanie Babaies (I admit to this one!)
Pogs (i had these too!)
The Teletubbies (15 years old and arguing with my mum because i wanted "po" - no word of a lie!!)

2000's

Tamagotchis (I secretly used to kill my dog on this!)
Spongebob Squarepants
Jelly Bracelets
Myspace
Facebook
Youtube!

When will this end?

I think the most recent fads are things like chamilia bracelets, 80's fashion and very bad music!

there MUST be an end to this madness

right - gotta go people - time to check my phone / email / messages / ARGHHHH

Update

Just a quick update for you all.

My Step bro lands in the UK tomorrow from Australia. He's coming to say bye to my other mum. she has deteriorated very quickly and i only hope she holds on until he arrives.

I've got a big family so death isn't an unusual thing - but you don't expect people to die do you? I don't ever think "oh grans looking old" i just see my gran. Same with my other mum. Shes 65 - I never really see her as a 65 year old! She's always been so strong and active, even now shes trying to hide pain and now ask for any medicine as she doesn't want to accept this is it.

I'm glad she told me a few things when she could - She said i made her proud and how she loves my little family - I haven't told her about OH moving out, and I'm not going to. I look at her when shes awake and you can see her minds perfect but her body's just not there and she can only stare.

Its the worst thing watching someone fade before your eyes - but its even worse knowing theres nothing i can do

Barbie has more make up than me!

Hi Everyone!

Hope your all well!

I had a girly night with my friends on Thursday night and they was disgusted with my lack of make up lol

This is what WAS my make up:



Anyway, my best friend decided enough was enough and we've just been to Asda and i am now the owner of :

lol

Just got to get the quantities right - don't want to be looking like Aunt Sally!

Anyway, As you all know me and OH broke up - I have a "date" at the end of the month (its with a friend who I've known for years - the same one who does the 7 hour phone calls)

SO . . . I'm wearing a LBD and cant decided whether or not to wear my glasses or get contacts - I've worn contacts before and got on fine but I'm not sure.

What do you guys think?

I definantly think without my glasses !

Not really doing much this weekend to be honest, I was going to go out tonight but I've brought a new net book (Acer 10.1) and after the make up splurge i want to rein in my spending for now!

Whats everyone else up to?

xx

7 hour phone call

I got 2 hours sleep last night. Was on the phone from Midnight till 7am talking absolute rubbish to someone lol

I didnt have time to wash my hair this morning so THANK GOD for dry shampoo

Am wearing my V neck dress and leggings into work today and the guys i work with said i look nice so although i have bags under my eyes big enough for a monthly shop that must be good!

I've been invited to Exeter for a weekend break and Im heading there at the end of March, need to get away for a bit - J is going to have DD so that'll be nice for her

Hope your all well - i'll be going to bed after work for some much needed rest!

Me x

Sorry! I'm back!

Sorry for not updating this!

Been so busy lately A LOT has happened.

It was my birthday last week (now 26) and I had a lovely bunch of flowers delievered to my office from my daughter :)

I didnt really get anything else for my birthday so i've spoilt myself with some clothes :)

I now, officially own TWO, thats right, TWO dresses lol I havent been able to take pics of them yet but these are them:

http://www.asos.com//Asos/Asos-Mesh-Insert-Bandage-Dress/Prod/pgeproduct.aspx?iid=990136 (in black)

and

http://www.asos.com//Asos/Asos-V-Neck-Ponteroma-Jersey-Dress/Prod/pgeproduct.aspx?iid=852043

(which looks nice with my leggings!)

Yes - i brought leggings too lol

I'm at work today - nothing to do until this afternoon (cant bring the work forward unfortunatley) so im just hanging around doing not alot!

Two bit's of bad news:

I've cancelled my wedding and have asked OH to move out. We've been arguing a HELL of a lot just lately so we both agreed this is for the best for now . . Its not the be all and end all but we're both happier when not around each other

Also, my "other" mum (its complicated - she's not related to me at all but she's like my second mum) Has been taken into a hospice to spend her last few weeks in peace. She's accepted it, shes refusing treatment (it wont cure her, just prolong her life) and although every part of me is screaming because she's giving in, i understand why she's doing what she is (she's in her 60's, her husband has just turned 84) and I'll be there to support her. Its strange because i dont think of her as dying, I know deep down she is, but in my mind i see her coming home and us having a natter in her living room.

I was supposed to go and see a private counsellor yesterday but because theres been so much change i cancelled the appointment, I wanted to talk to her about the problems me and J was havign but since we decided to have a bhreak it isnt really relevant at the moment and i dont really want to talk to someone about my other mum just yet, will make it seem too real and im not ready for that right now.

ANYWAY

Its nearly lunch time (nothing spectacular - half a tin of chicken soup and two slices of bread lol) I'm a size 12 now - just need to try and flatten my stomach a bit now! :(

Take care everyone, hope your all ok xx

No - I dont look like frankenstein any more

Hey everyone!

Happy Valentines Day!

I've snuck on here whilst everything is quite. Jono is still in bed, he's working away this afternoon, leaves at 3pm and wont be back till late (he doesn't normally work weekends, its over time) but he's go to head south to Gatwick which is at least 4 hours away from here so no romantic night in for me!

A few of you was asking about my scar after my Thyroid lobotomy. Its now a faint line, it will eventually just be a skin crease. When I'm cold It goes purple. If you didn't know it was there then you wouldn't notice and to be honest, even when you do know its there you forget so don't notice it anyway!

I DO notice it but that's because its there in the mirror every day when I'm putting my make up on, Its not as bas as it used to be, it helps now people don't stare at it like they did when i first had it done.

Here's a picture i took of it today:





looks goof doesn't it compared to the shockers that are on facebook lol

Of course I don't mind you adding me on facebook lol I must warn you though - I'm on there ALL the time. I like Twitter a lot too so have linked them both so i only need to update one and the other updates automatically (because I'm sad like that!)

I hope your all having a brilliant day

Take care, Alana xox

It only seems like yesterday

Sorry for the second blog in one day - I'm dont think i can get around tomorrow.

I just realised that it has been 2 years since I was diagnoised with my tumour. 27th Feb 2008 is when they took my thyroid out and an egg sized tumour. It was 2 days after my 24th birthday and ironically the 27th is my brothers birthday too. I never realised how much the thyroid did and how little awareness there is. When people talk of tumours you think of the obvious ones, I know i did.

I noticed the lump many years before it was dianoised and was always told "its nothing" so i stupidly belived that. If i'd persisted and got it checked out sooner maybe i wouldnt have to of had my thyroid out. I dont want anyone else to be fobbed off - but its not something many people check.

Please keep a check on your neck! My tumour looked like an adam's apple - I often joked i was a man!

This is a (terrible) picture of me and a friend just before the diagnosis but it shows you what to look for.

If your interested in the "after" shots from surgery (please don't look if your squemish!) then follow this link to my FB page - i didnt want to upload them on here!

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=91820&id=600365611&l=f1ce6ddf66

January is Thyroid Awareness Month - Dont forget about it the other 11 months

Do you know where your thyroid is? - http://www.thyroidawarenessmonth.com/

I feel like i should be an extra on "the little house on the prairie" all because of one floral top lol

I know its fashionable but its not something i would have ever picked up if it hadnt of been for the girls on MSE for encouraging me. Its nice - Its just not the usual "tank top" that i would bbe wearing as a slummy mummy

I've got a pic for you all! sorry about the poor quality - it was took on my phone after all by my OH who looked shocked at my dress style today lol

My cars in the garage - I dropped it off first thing - It should cost just under £150 to fix everything (we supplied the light!) and seeing as im not paying for it - BONUS

Today I dont have anything planned - OH is working tomorrow so we'll just be chilling out - didnt get much sleep either last night - about 3 hours maybe so lots of caffine!

**Ignore the fat face on the pics - i'd just got up lol**

http://www.twitpic.com/12ybl1

http://www.twitpic.com/12yb95

(i cant put them on here - how do i do that!!)

slummy mummy not yummy mummy :-/

Yesterday was eventful, My car went in the garage and they said its looking likely to be around £500 to repair everything (inc labour) so i think it might be wrote off soon - im off to another garage today for yet ANOTHER quote. We're saving for a wedding so can't really afford a car but a friend said i can have his old Audi and pay monthly for it but im going to see what happens with my car first.

Went into town after work yesterday - i brought a pair of over the knee socks and thats it lol I wear a check "boyfriend" shirt to bed so my legs get cold - hence the over the knee socks lol I think they would like nice with a short(ish) dress and my ankle boots (yes! i know! i own shoes!) Bet you all thought my shoe collection was all from nike lol

I did see few new items i like, then saw price tags and thought better of it lol

So if you have seen theres cheaper elsewhere, let me know

http://www.topshop.com/webapp/wcs/st...nt_category_rn=

http://www.dorothyperkins.com/webapp/wcs/stores/servlet/ProductDisplay?beginIndex=0&viewAllFlag=&catalogId=20552&storeId=12552&categoryId=178015&parent_category_rn=88619&productId=1603675&langId=-1

or this one:

http://www.dorothyperkins.com/webapp...5058&langId=-1

Today im Slummy Mummy - I have my new socks on (its cold lol) my black boot slippers (? not sure if thats the right word) jeans and a plain black t - also got a great big towel on my head as ive washed my hair but it isnt dry yet lol SOO hope the postman doesnt come knocking on the door with a parcel

My DD is annoying me today - shes at that stage where she starts pushing bondries to see what she gets away with.

Some of the girls mentioned yesterday their nail polish keeps chipping. I use leighton denny polish - its expensive for nail polish but it lasts ages and ive never had mine chipped yet!

Sorry if this blogs a bit rubbish at the moment! i'll try to keep it active lol

Take care, have a great day and thanks for reading :)

yey my first post

No idea what I am doing - some one help! :)

At work today - only half a day and then thats me done for the week. I'm off into town later so might treat myself to some new clothes and get away from those horrid trainers!

love me x