It's been a while!

Sorry for the delay!!

It has been rather hectic around here - Im constantly on FB though!

Personal life is on the up - I'm eating again but i do want to lose a bit mroe weight so diet starts today. Must try and drink more water.

Been seeing a guy called Ben who is fantastic, really makes me smile and get butterflies which is great - known him for 9 yeas and yes, probably is a bit too soon after my ex but you kow what - he knows the situation so  . . . .

Went down to Exeter last weekend - Just for the day on Sunday, Got a speeding ticket on the way down (I know i know!) me and Ben caught the train to Dawlish on Sunday, spent a few hours wandering around there, went to check train times back to Exeter and . . . it was 3 hours later! ah all good fun. I'm going to see him Thursday and he's coming back to Notts with me on Friday and staying till Tuesday - gonna be great. DD wont be around, she's with her dad at the W.E then off to my mums for a bit.

Went shopping at the weekend, brought these:

http://www.newlook.com/browse/productDetail.jsp?icProduct=180646471&icCategory=cat20002&icSort= (in Pink and cream - £5 each!)

http://www.newlook.com/browse/productDetail.jsp?icProduct=182568701&icCategory=cat620004&icSort= (black)

http://www.dorothyperkins.com/webapp/wcs/stores/servlet/ProductDisplay?beginIndex=100&viewAllFlag=false&catalogId=20552&storeId=12552&categoryId=178015&parent_category_rn=88619&productId=1575201&langId=-1 (ok so i dont actually have this one - its VERY similar though - same colours and pattern but its a tank top and doesnt have the detail at the top)

(i got a red scarf from claires accessories to wear with this too!)

http://www.dorothyperkins.com/webapp/wcs/stores/servlet/ProductDisplay?beginIndex=0&viewAllFlag=true&catalogId=20552&storeId=12552&categoryId=51603&parent_category_rn=51602&productId=1612457&langId=-1

http://www.newlook.com/browse/productDetail.jsp?icProduct=192665701&icCategory=cat490048&icSort=-myBestSellerScore (in black)

and i also got:

http://www.cult.co.uk/detail_view.aspx?pid=9I09wtjxAt0MpopM for when its cold at night


Anyway!

I think thats you all caught up

Hope your all ok

Me xx

My weekend

Ok - Dont want to go into everything on here! Date went ahead, was lovely though and we sorted a lot of the worries out. difficult when its a friend!

Exeter is LOVELY, such a nice place. Weather wasnt as hot as i would have liked but hey - its march, cant expect miracules!

Things are starting to look up i think

Me xx

Why do we bother ladies?

Grrr . . . .man rant! I’m supposed to be going on my date this weekend and my date keeps changing his mind about whether we should go or not. its pi$$ing me off BIG TIME. Last convo we had was that it was "on" so I’ve sent a text this morning with a basic message of "I need to know for definite as I need to make arrangements for DD and can’t keep changing plans as my mum won’t have her for me again"

Waiting on a reply.

I've also had an allergic reaction to some medicine the doctor has given me, it’s a form of deodorant - and its BURNING. I've got bright red marks under my arms, have tried to wash it off but it’s still stinging.

My other mum got buried yesterday, was a catholic service and I was fine - didn’t cry and held it together really well

Got my 6 month review at work today and I’m dreading it :(

Hope your all ok

Take care and I shall update you as to whether or not my weekend plans change . . AGAIN!!

My friends are FABULOUS

Well, yesterday me and my friend decided to enter Race for Life in memory of my other mum. Uploaded a link to my donation page and it asked for a "target" so i thought, recession, not many people will want to donate much - So i set my target for £100.

I checked online this morning - Its at £75 already with 7 dontations! Have now upped the target to £200!

I think its fantastic that people are dipping in their pockets (even if it is only to see whether i can run the 3 miles lol)

I had a bad day yesterday - I've been quite snappy with my friends and not all of them understand that im lashing out because of everything i've had going off but the ones who are sticking around are the best friends i could have asked for. I thought i had accidentley took too many thyroxine tablets yesterday but havign checked i didnt - took the correct dosage! Also did a lot of bank reviews - me and DD will be just fine! (Money was a huge worry for me!)

I feel a bit calmer today than i did yesterday - think i got most of the stressfulness out so should be back to my jolly nutty self today :)

hope your all havign a BRILLIANT day :) xx

Sponsor me please!

hi everyone,

Short and sweet - As you all know my other mom died last week - I've entered in this years race for life.

Please show your support, dig deep and sponsor me

http://www.raceforlifesponsorme.org/alanamonington

Will the gossips please fine someone else to talk about right now

urgh yesterday evening turned into a disaster!

When we had all the girls around i was explaining that me and J hadn't been getting on (for well over 2 years) and although we tried to make it work, its not happening and we've broken up. I have a friend who ive liked for ages but have never ever done anything with him. Well, we're both single now and we're going on a date at the end of the month. I promised J when i started seeing someone serious i would tell him - and because this is only a date i didnt tell him to spare his feelings.

ANYWAY - one of the girls at the party blabbed to my sister (who im not close to and who hates me with a vengance) and my sister told my brother who then told me. It went from "date" to "affair" very quickly in this game of chinese whispers and i was worried it would get back to J.

Tried to go the right thing, rang my friend, explained what had happened and asked if I could tell J (I expected J to say something to my friend and wanted to give him the heads up) so then i had to tell J. Its the worst thing ive ever had to do. He hates me now. Says ive broken his heart, he cant believe ive gotten over him so quickly (tbh me and him havent been right for years so i dont know why this is a shock for him) and a few other choice words.

I reallt didnt want J finding out like this and now feel awful :(

Why do people gossip? Whats the point in it?!

Alana x

(you know this new blogging style - wheres spell checker?)

ouch! that hurts!

Firstly - Thanks everyone for the replies regarding my other mum - Im ok, lost a bit of weight through stress and not sleeping well but im glad she is no longer in pain and knew how much she ment to me, Funerals next week and i think that will be difficult

Secondly - My friends and me went POLE dancing yesterday! (if my other mum could see me she'd be fuming! she waqs very religious - not only would she disagree with the pole dancing but doing it on a sunday! i'd be in so much trouble)

Well i managed to do a fair amount of moves and it was great having a giggle with the girls. We was dancing for an ho9ur and 30 min and it isnt sleezy at all! its ballet with a pole! However, I have a blood blister on the bottom of my food, loads of bruising on my legs and my arms, stomach and shoulder blades are aching!

Does anyone else do this for exercise? I think i need some pads for the bottom of my feet - any suggestions? need to wear low socks as i need flesh showing to grip thhe pole

Im in court tomorrow - witness to an alledged incident (not alledged at all - other party is lying through their teeth!) so hopefully they will see through the lies and come to the correct conclusion.

Slumming it today clothes wise - Uggs, Jeans, t-shirt from asda (paris one so kinda fashionable) and my big black cardi as im freezing but refuse to put the heating on!

Doing well with my make up - havent made myself look orange yet!

still having man problems!  Ex still acting like we are together but we've had a talk and hopefully he'll stop crowding me soon.

Hope you are all ok and i will try and check in soon xx