Will the gossips please fine someone else to talk about right now

urgh yesterday evening turned into a disaster!

When we had all the girls around i was explaining that me and J hadn't been getting on (for well over 2 years) and although we tried to make it work, its not happening and we've broken up. I have a friend who ive liked for ages but have never ever done anything with him. Well, we're both single now and we're going on a date at the end of the month. I promised J when i started seeing someone serious i would tell him - and because this is only a date i didnt tell him to spare his feelings.

ANYWAY - one of the girls at the party blabbed to my sister (who im not close to and who hates me with a vengance) and my sister told my brother who then told me. It went from "date" to "affair" very quickly in this game of chinese whispers and i was worried it would get back to J.

Tried to go the right thing, rang my friend, explained what had happened and asked if I could tell J (I expected J to say something to my friend and wanted to give him the heads up) so then i had to tell J. Its the worst thing ive ever had to do. He hates me now. Says ive broken his heart, he cant believe ive gotten over him so quickly (tbh me and him havent been right for years so i dont know why this is a shock for him) and a few other choice words.

I reallt didnt want J finding out like this and now feel awful :(

Why do people gossip? Whats the point in it?!

Alana x

(you know this new blogging style - wheres spell checker?)

ouch! that hurts!

Firstly - Thanks everyone for the replies regarding my other mum - Im ok, lost a bit of weight through stress and not sleeping well but im glad she is no longer in pain and knew how much she ment to me, Funerals next week and i think that will be difficult

Secondly - My friends and me went POLE dancing yesterday! (if my other mum could see me she'd be fuming! she waqs very religious - not only would she disagree with the pole dancing but doing it on a sunday! i'd be in so much trouble)

Well i managed to do a fair amount of moves and it was great having a giggle with the girls. We was dancing for an ho9ur and 30 min and it isnt sleezy at all! its ballet with a pole! However, I have a blood blister on the bottom of my food, loads of bruising on my legs and my arms, stomach and shoulder blades are aching!

Does anyone else do this for exercise? I think i need some pads for the bottom of my feet - any suggestions? need to wear low socks as i need flesh showing to grip thhe pole

Im in court tomorrow - witness to an alledged incident (not alledged at all - other party is lying through their teeth!) so hopefully they will see through the lies and come to the correct conclusion.

Slumming it today clothes wise - Uggs, Jeans, t-shirt from asda (paris one so kinda fashionable) and my big black cardi as im freezing but refuse to put the heating on!

Doing well with my make up - havent made myself look orange yet!

still having man problems!  Ex still acting like we are together but we've had a talk and hopefully he'll stop crowding me soon.

Hope you are all ok and i will try and check in soon xx