Ok - Dont want to go into everything on here! Date went ahead, was lovely though and we sorted a lot of the worries out. difficult when its a friend!
Exeter is LOVELY, such a nice place. Weather wasnt as hot as i would have liked but hey - its march, cant expect miracules!
Things are starting to look up i think
Me xx
Tuesday, 30 March 2010
Wednesday, 24 March 2010
Why do we bother ladies?
Grrr . . . .man rant! I’m supposed to be going on my date this weekend and my date keeps changing his mind about whether we should go or not. its pi$$ing me off BIG TIME. Last convo we had was that it was "on" so I’ve sent a text this morning with a basic message of "I need to know for definite as I need to make arrangements for DD and can’t keep changing plans as my mum won’t have her for me again"
Waiting on a reply.
I've also had an allergic reaction to some medicine the doctor has given me, it’s a form of deodorant - and its BURNING. I've got bright red marks under my arms, have tried to wash it off but it’s still stinging.
My other mum got buried yesterday, was a catholic service and I was fine - didn’t cry and held it together really well
Got my 6 month review at work today and I’m dreading it :(
Hope your all ok
Take care and I shall update you as to whether or not my weekend plans change . . AGAIN!!
Waiting on a reply.
I've also had an allergic reaction to some medicine the doctor has given me, it’s a form of deodorant - and its BURNING. I've got bright red marks under my arms, have tried to wash it off but it’s still stinging.
My other mum got buried yesterday, was a catholic service and I was fine - didn’t cry and held it together really well
Got my 6 month review at work today and I’m dreading it :(
Hope your all ok
Take care and I shall update you as to whether or not my weekend plans change . . AGAIN!!
Thursday, 18 March 2010
My friends are FABULOUS
Well, yesterday me and my friend decided to enter Race for Life in memory of my other mum. Uploaded a link to my donation page and it asked for a "target" so i thought, recession, not many people will want to donate much - So i set my target for £100.
I checked online this morning - Its at £75 already with 7 dontations! Have now upped the target to £200!
I think its fantastic that people are dipping in their pockets (even if it is only to see whether i can run the 3 miles lol)
I had a bad day yesterday - I've been quite snappy with my friends and not all of them understand that im lashing out because of everything i've had going off but the ones who are sticking around are the best friends i could have asked for. I thought i had accidentley took too many thyroxine tablets yesterday but havign checked i didnt - took the correct dosage! Also did a lot of bank reviews - me and DD will be just fine! (Money was a huge worry for me!)
I feel a bit calmer today than i did yesterday - think i got most of the stressfulness out so should be back to my jolly nutty self today :)
hope your all havign a BRILLIANT day :) xx
I checked online this morning - Its at £75 already with 7 dontations! Have now upped the target to £200!
I think its fantastic that people are dipping in their pockets (even if it is only to see whether i can run the 3 miles lol)
I had a bad day yesterday - I've been quite snappy with my friends and not all of them understand that im lashing out because of everything i've had going off but the ones who are sticking around are the best friends i could have asked for. I thought i had accidentley took too many thyroxine tablets yesterday but havign checked i didnt - took the correct dosage! Also did a lot of bank reviews - me and DD will be just fine! (Money was a huge worry for me!)
I feel a bit calmer today than i did yesterday - think i got most of the stressfulness out so should be back to my jolly nutty self today :)
hope your all havign a BRILLIANT day :) xx
Wednesday, 17 March 2010
Sponsor me please!
hi everyone,
Short and sweet - As you all know my other mom died last week - I've entered in this years race for life.
Please show your support, dig deep and sponsor me
http://www.raceforlifesponsorme.org/alanamonington
Short and sweet - As you all know my other mom died last week - I've entered in this years race for life.
Please show your support, dig deep and sponsor me
http://www.raceforlifesponsorme.org/alanamonington
Tuesday, 16 March 2010
Will the gossips please fine someone else to talk about right now
urgh yesterday evening turned into a disaster!
When we had all the girls around i was explaining that me and J hadn't been getting on (for well over 2 years) and although we tried to make it work, its not happening and we've broken up. I have a friend who ive liked for ages but have never ever done anything with him. Well, we're both single now and we're going on a date at the end of the month. I promised J when i started seeing someone serious i would tell him - and because this is only a date i didnt tell him to spare his feelings.
ANYWAY - one of the girls at the party blabbed to my sister (who im not close to and who hates me with a vengance) and my sister told my brother who then told me. It went from "date" to "affair" very quickly in this game of chinese whispers and i was worried it would get back to J.
Tried to go the right thing, rang my friend, explained what had happened and asked if I could tell J (I expected J to say something to my friend and wanted to give him the heads up) so then i had to tell J. Its the worst thing ive ever had to do. He hates me now. Says ive broken his heart, he cant believe ive gotten over him so quickly (tbh me and him havent been right for years so i dont know why this is a shock for him) and a few other choice words.
I reallt didnt want J finding out like this and now feel awful :(
Why do people gossip? Whats the point in it?!
Alana x
(you know this new blogging style - wheres spell checker?)
When we had all the girls around i was explaining that me and J hadn't been getting on (for well over 2 years) and although we tried to make it work, its not happening and we've broken up. I have a friend who ive liked for ages but have never ever done anything with him. Well, we're both single now and we're going on a date at the end of the month. I promised J when i started seeing someone serious i would tell him - and because this is only a date i didnt tell him to spare his feelings.
ANYWAY - one of the girls at the party blabbed to my sister (who im not close to and who hates me with a vengance) and my sister told my brother who then told me. It went from "date" to "affair" very quickly in this game of chinese whispers and i was worried it would get back to J.
Tried to go the right thing, rang my friend, explained what had happened and asked if I could tell J (I expected J to say something to my friend and wanted to give him the heads up) so then i had to tell J. Its the worst thing ive ever had to do. He hates me now. Says ive broken his heart, he cant believe ive gotten over him so quickly (tbh me and him havent been right for years so i dont know why this is a shock for him) and a few other choice words.
I reallt didnt want J finding out like this and now feel awful :(
Why do people gossip? Whats the point in it?!
Alana x
(you know this new blogging style - wheres spell checker?)
Monday, 15 March 2010
ouch! that hurts!
Firstly - Thanks everyone for the replies regarding my other mum - Im ok, lost a bit of weight through stress and not sleeping well but im glad she is no longer in pain and knew how much she ment to me, Funerals next week and i think that will be difficult
Secondly - My friends and me went POLE dancing yesterday! (if my other mum could see me she'd be fuming! she waqs very religious - not only would she disagree with the pole dancing but doing it on a sunday! i'd be in so much trouble)
Well i managed to do a fair amount of moves and it was great having a giggle with the girls. We was dancing for an ho9ur and 30 min and it isnt sleezy at all! its ballet with a pole! However, I have a blood blister on the bottom of my food, loads of bruising on my legs and my arms, stomach and shoulder blades are aching!
Does anyone else do this for exercise? I think i need some pads for the bottom of my feet - any suggestions? need to wear low socks as i need flesh showing to grip thhe pole
Im in court tomorrow - witness to an alledged incident (not alledged at all - other party is lying through their teeth!) so hopefully they will see through the lies and come to the correct conclusion.
Slumming it today clothes wise - Uggs, Jeans, t-shirt from asda (paris one so kinda fashionable) and my big black cardi as im freezing but refuse to put the heating on!
Doing well with my make up - havent made myself look orange yet!
still having man problems! Ex still acting like we are together but we've had a talk and hopefully he'll stop crowding me soon.
Hope you are all ok and i will try and check in soon xx
Secondly - My friends and me went POLE dancing yesterday! (if my other mum could see me she'd be fuming! she waqs very religious - not only would she disagree with the pole dancing but doing it on a sunday! i'd be in so much trouble)
Well i managed to do a fair amount of moves and it was great having a giggle with the girls. We was dancing for an ho9ur and 30 min and it isnt sleezy at all! its ballet with a pole! However, I have a blood blister on the bottom of my food, loads of bruising on my legs and my arms, stomach and shoulder blades are aching!
Does anyone else do this for exercise? I think i need some pads for the bottom of my feet - any suggestions? need to wear low socks as i need flesh showing to grip thhe pole
Im in court tomorrow - witness to an alledged incident (not alledged at all - other party is lying through their teeth!) so hopefully they will see through the lies and come to the correct conclusion.
Slumming it today clothes wise - Uggs, Jeans, t-shirt from asda (paris one so kinda fashionable) and my big black cardi as im freezing but refuse to put the heating on!
Doing well with my make up - havent made myself look orange yet!
still having man problems! Ex still acting like we are together but we've had a talk and hopefully he'll stop crowding me soon.
Hope you are all ok and i will try and check in soon xx
Friday, 12 March 2010
Farewell "mom"
My other mom died this morning.
I got a phone called at 07:15 to tell me of her passing. I've had my cry and for some stupid reason I convinced myself I needed to come to work so thats where I am, Sat at my desk, wondering what the hell am I doing. I suppose its better than sitting at home and getting upset?
I went to see her twice in the hospice yesterday. The nurses said she was able to hear me but wasnt really with it so I told her i loved her asked what I was going to do without her and told her I would look after her husband. Said that everyone has been to see her and thats some comfort - we all had our goodbyes.
I've been and got a sympathy card for her family - Just simply wrote "Nothing I can say will ease the pain, Thank you for sharing her with me. Always near if you need me, Love Always"
Not really sure what else to put here so this will be a short post.
RIP "mom" you were the best - love you
Alana
I got a phone called at 07:15 to tell me of her passing. I've had my cry and for some stupid reason I convinced myself I needed to come to work so thats where I am, Sat at my desk, wondering what the hell am I doing. I suppose its better than sitting at home and getting upset?
I went to see her twice in the hospice yesterday. The nurses said she was able to hear me but wasnt really with it so I told her i loved her asked what I was going to do without her and told her I would look after her husband. Said that everyone has been to see her and thats some comfort - we all had our goodbyes.
I've been and got a sympathy card for her family - Just simply wrote "Nothing I can say will ease the pain, Thank you for sharing her with me. Always near if you need me, Love Always"
Not really sure what else to put here so this will be a short post.
RIP "mom" you were the best - love you
Alana
Wednesday, 10 March 2010
yup - DEFINATLEY addicted
When was the last time you left your phone at home whilst you went out? Or the last time you turned your phone off? I couldnt tell you the answer to either of those questions right now. I seriously think i'm addicted to technology! how did i ever live in the 1990's without my phone?! Can you remember when they we're bricks and you was lucky if yours recieved picture messages? I have a Blackberry at the moment and theres the usual rubbish on there - The friend you never text unless your bored - The friends who text you when THEIR bored. But i've also got Twitter on there, Facebook, my hotmail email account, BBC news web page, google, a translator programme (i do use this occasionally!) and then random things like a timetable for the tube (i live in Nottingham for gods sake! why did i download this!)
I constantly check my phone for texts/calls/emails/messages and i seriously think im having withdrawal symptoms. There is nothing worse waiting on THAT person to text you - it makes you look at your phone even more!
Did you know that legally, a mobile phone company only need to test the radiation from a handset to the standards of a 15 degree angle. So when i'm slobbing in bed on my silly o'clock phone calls to THAT person im probably killing my limited brain cells with the radiation because, who, ACTUALLY holds their phone when their laid down? (I cant be the only person to talk on the phone in bed surely?) I'm quite bad at answering the phone when im in the bath too lol
I always say im going to have a mobile free day - and i never actually do. I always come up with an excuse. "oh but DD's nursery might call me if she's poorly" (they have my work number . . .!) "but it might be something important" (in which case, they have my mums number . . .!) currently I'm waiting on the dreaded call regarding my other mum but I would like to be able to say that I will leave my phone alone after this time.
I was addicted to facebook - not so more. I'd like to delete my profile but its the only way I keep in touch with online buddies and to be honest, I have pictures on there that I wouldnt see if my profile wasnt there.
I read once that there are celebrities who are technophobics. I have no idea how they go on with their day to day lives without these small pieces of wires and cables and plastic cases!
What is it with trends that make them so compulsive?
Here are a few trends from the past - how many of you were compelled to join in "just because"
1980's
Cabbage Patch Kids (WHY?!)
Jelly Shoes (making a come back on small kids!)
Doc Martin shoes
Parachute pants!
Happy Sacks
1990's
The Macerana (that ANNOYING dance you just HAVE to do at parties)
Beanie Babaies (I admit to this one!)
Pogs (i had these too!)
The Teletubbies (15 years old and arguing with my mum because i wanted "po" - no word of a lie!!)
2000's
Tamagotchis (I secretly used to kill my dog on this!)
Spongebob Squarepants
Jelly Bracelets
Myspace
Facebook
Youtube!
When will this end?
I think the most recent fads are things like chamilia bracelets, 80's fashion and very bad music!
there MUST be an end to this madness
right - gotta go people - time to check my phone / email / messages / ARGHHHH
I constantly check my phone for texts/calls/emails/messages and i seriously think im having withdrawal symptoms. There is nothing worse waiting on THAT person to text you - it makes you look at your phone even more!
Did you know that legally, a mobile phone company only need to test the radiation from a handset to the standards of a 15 degree angle. So when i'm slobbing in bed on my silly o'clock phone calls to THAT person im probably killing my limited brain cells with the radiation because, who, ACTUALLY holds their phone when their laid down? (I cant be the only person to talk on the phone in bed surely?) I'm quite bad at answering the phone when im in the bath too lol
I always say im going to have a mobile free day - and i never actually do. I always come up with an excuse. "oh but DD's nursery might call me if she's poorly" (they have my work number . . .!) "but it might be something important" (in which case, they have my mums number . . .!) currently I'm waiting on the dreaded call regarding my other mum but I would like to be able to say that I will leave my phone alone after this time.
I was addicted to facebook - not so more. I'd like to delete my profile but its the only way I keep in touch with online buddies and to be honest, I have pictures on there that I wouldnt see if my profile wasnt there.
I read once that there are celebrities who are technophobics. I have no idea how they go on with their day to day lives without these small pieces of wires and cables and plastic cases!
What is it with trends that make them so compulsive?
Here are a few trends from the past - how many of you were compelled to join in "just because"
1980's
Cabbage Patch Kids (WHY?!)
Jelly Shoes (making a come back on small kids!)
Doc Martin shoes
Parachute pants!
Happy Sacks
1990's
The Macerana (that ANNOYING dance you just HAVE to do at parties)
Beanie Babaies (I admit to this one!)
Pogs (i had these too!)
The Teletubbies (15 years old and arguing with my mum because i wanted "po" - no word of a lie!!)
2000's
Tamagotchis (I secretly used to kill my dog on this!)
Spongebob Squarepants
Jelly Bracelets
Myspace
Youtube!
When will this end?
I think the most recent fads are things like chamilia bracelets, 80's fashion and very bad music!
there MUST be an end to this madness
right - gotta go people - time to check my phone / email / messages / ARGHHHH
Tuesday, 9 March 2010
Update
Just a quick update for you all.
My Step bro lands in the UK tomorrow from Australia. He's coming to say bye to my other mum. she has deteriorated very quickly and i only hope she holds on until he arrives.
I've got a big family so death isn't an unusual thing - but you don't expect people to die do you? I don't ever think "oh grans looking old" i just see my gran. Same with my other mum. Shes 65 - I never really see her as a 65 year old! She's always been so strong and active, even now shes trying to hide pain and now ask for any medicine as she doesn't want to accept this is it.
I'm glad she told me a few things when she could - She said i made her proud and how she loves my little family - I haven't told her about OH moving out, and I'm not going to. I look at her when shes awake and you can see her minds perfect but her body's just not there and she can only stare.
Its the worst thing watching someone fade before your eyes - but its even worse knowing theres nothing i can do
My Step bro lands in the UK tomorrow from Australia. He's coming to say bye to my other mum. she has deteriorated very quickly and i only hope she holds on until he arrives.
I've got a big family so death isn't an unusual thing - but you don't expect people to die do you? I don't ever think "oh grans looking old" i just see my gran. Same with my other mum. Shes 65 - I never really see her as a 65 year old! She's always been so strong and active, even now shes trying to hide pain and now ask for any medicine as she doesn't want to accept this is it.
I'm glad she told me a few things when she could - She said i made her proud and how she loves my little family - I haven't told her about OH moving out, and I'm not going to. I look at her when shes awake and you can see her minds perfect but her body's just not there and she can only stare.
Its the worst thing watching someone fade before your eyes - but its even worse knowing theres nothing i can do
Saturday, 6 March 2010
Barbie has more make up than me!
Hi Everyone!
Hope your all well!
I had a girly night with my friends on Thursday night and they was disgusted with my lack of make up lol
This is what WAS my make up:
Anyway, my best friend decided enough was enough and we've just been to Asda and i am now the owner of :
lol
Just got to get the quantities right - don't want to be looking like Aunt Sally!
Anyway, As you all know me and OH broke up - I have a "date" at the end of the month (its with a friend who I've known for years - the same one who does the 7 hour phone calls)
SO . . . I'm wearing a LBD and cant decided whether or not to wear my glasses or get contacts - I've worn contacts before and got on fine but I'm not sure.
What do you guys think?
I definantly think without my glasses !
Hope your all well!
I had a girly night with my friends on Thursday night and they was disgusted with my lack of make up lol
This is what WAS my make up:
Anyway, my best friend decided enough was enough and we've just been to Asda and i am now the owner of :
lol
Just got to get the quantities right - don't want to be looking like Aunt Sally!
Anyway, As you all know me and OH broke up - I have a "date" at the end of the month (its with a friend who I've known for years - the same one who does the 7 hour phone calls)
SO . . . I'm wearing a LBD and cant decided whether or not to wear my glasses or get contacts - I've worn contacts before and got on fine but I'm not sure.
What do you guys think?
I definantly think without my glasses !
Not really doing much this weekend to be honest, I was going to go out tonight but I've brought a new net book (Acer 10.1) and after the make up splurge i want to rein in my spending for now!
Whats everyone else up to?
xx
Wednesday, 3 March 2010
7 hour phone call
I got 2 hours sleep last night. Was on the phone from Midnight till 7am talking absolute rubbish to someone lol
I didnt have time to wash my hair this morning so THANK GOD for dry shampoo
Am wearing my V neck dress and leggings into work today and the guys i work with said i look nice so although i have bags under my eyes big enough for a monthly shop that must be good!
I've been invited to Exeter for a weekend break and Im heading there at the end of March, need to get away for a bit - J is going to have DD so that'll be nice for her
Hope your all well - i'll be going to bed after work for some much needed rest!
Me x
I didnt have time to wash my hair this morning so THANK GOD for dry shampoo
Am wearing my V neck dress and leggings into work today and the guys i work with said i look nice so although i have bags under my eyes big enough for a monthly shop that must be good!
I've been invited to Exeter for a weekend break and Im heading there at the end of March, need to get away for a bit - J is going to have DD so that'll be nice for her
Hope your all well - i'll be going to bed after work for some much needed rest!
Me x
Tuesday, 2 March 2010
Sorry! I'm back!
Sorry for not updating this!
Been so busy lately A LOT has happened.
It was my birthday last week (now 26) and I had a lovely bunch of flowers delievered to my office from my daughter :)
I didnt really get anything else for my birthday so i've spoilt myself with some clothes :)
I now, officially own TWO, thats right, TWO dresses lol I havent been able to take pics of them yet but these are them:
http://www.asos.com//Asos/Asos-Mesh-Insert-Bandage-Dress/Prod/pgeproduct.aspx?iid=990136 (in black)
and
http://www.asos.com//Asos/Asos-V-Neck-Ponteroma-Jersey-Dress/Prod/pgeproduct.aspx?iid=852043
(which looks nice with my leggings!)
Yes - i brought leggings too lol
I'm at work today - nothing to do until this afternoon (cant bring the work forward unfortunatley) so im just hanging around doing not alot!
Two bit's of bad news:
I've cancelled my wedding and have asked OH to move out. We've been arguing a HELL of a lot just lately so we both agreed this is for the best for now . . Its not the be all and end all but we're both happier when not around each other
Also, my "other" mum (its complicated - she's not related to me at all but she's like my second mum) Has been taken into a hospice to spend her last few weeks in peace. She's accepted it, shes refusing treatment (it wont cure her, just prolong her life) and although every part of me is screaming because she's giving in, i understand why she's doing what she is (she's in her 60's, her husband has just turned 84) and I'll be there to support her. Its strange because i dont think of her as dying, I know deep down she is, but in my mind i see her coming home and us having a natter in her living room.
I was supposed to go and see a private counsellor yesterday but because theres been so much change i cancelled the appointment, I wanted to talk to her about the problems me and J was havign but since we decided to have a bhreak it isnt really relevant at the moment and i dont really want to talk to someone about my other mum just yet, will make it seem too real and im not ready for that right now.
ANYWAY
Its nearly lunch time (nothing spectacular - half a tin of chicken soup and two slices of bread lol) I'm a size 12 now - just need to try and flatten my stomach a bit now! :(
Take care everyone, hope your all ok xx
Been so busy lately A LOT has happened.
It was my birthday last week (now 26) and I had a lovely bunch of flowers delievered to my office from my daughter :)
I didnt really get anything else for my birthday so i've spoilt myself with some clothes :)
I now, officially own TWO, thats right, TWO dresses lol I havent been able to take pics of them yet but these are them:
http://www.asos.com//Asos/Asos-Mesh-Insert-Bandage-Dress/Prod/pgeproduct.aspx?iid=990136 (in black)
and
http://www.asos.com//Asos/Asos-V-Neck-Ponteroma-Jersey-Dress/Prod/pgeproduct.aspx?iid=852043
(which looks nice with my leggings!)
Yes - i brought leggings too lol
I'm at work today - nothing to do until this afternoon (cant bring the work forward unfortunatley) so im just hanging around doing not alot!
Two bit's of bad news:
I've cancelled my wedding and have asked OH to move out. We've been arguing a HELL of a lot just lately so we both agreed this is for the best for now . . Its not the be all and end all but we're both happier when not around each other
Also, my "other" mum (its complicated - she's not related to me at all but she's like my second mum) Has been taken into a hospice to spend her last few weeks in peace. She's accepted it, shes refusing treatment (it wont cure her, just prolong her life) and although every part of me is screaming because she's giving in, i understand why she's doing what she is (she's in her 60's, her husband has just turned 84) and I'll be there to support her. Its strange because i dont think of her as dying, I know deep down she is, but in my mind i see her coming home and us having a natter in her living room.
I was supposed to go and see a private counsellor yesterday but because theres been so much change i cancelled the appointment, I wanted to talk to her about the problems me and J was havign but since we decided to have a bhreak it isnt really relevant at the moment and i dont really want to talk to someone about my other mum just yet, will make it seem too real and im not ready for that right now.
ANYWAY
Its nearly lunch time (nothing spectacular - half a tin of chicken soup and two slices of bread lol) I'm a size 12 now - just need to try and flatten my stomach a bit now! :(
Take care everyone, hope your all ok xx
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