Sorry! I'm back!

Sorry for not updating this!

Been so busy lately A LOT has happened.

It was my birthday last week (now 26) and I had a lovely bunch of flowers delievered to my office from my daughter :)

I didnt really get anything else for my birthday so i've spoilt myself with some clothes :)

I now, officially own TWO, thats right, TWO dresses lol I havent been able to take pics of them yet but these are them:

http://www.asos.com//Asos/Asos-Mesh-Insert-Bandage-Dress/Prod/pgeproduct.aspx?iid=990136 (in black)

and

http://www.asos.com//Asos/Asos-V-Neck-Ponteroma-Jersey-Dress/Prod/pgeproduct.aspx?iid=852043

(which looks nice with my leggings!)

Yes - i brought leggings too lol

I'm at work today - nothing to do until this afternoon (cant bring the work forward unfortunatley) so im just hanging around doing not alot!

Two bit's of bad news:

I've cancelled my wedding and have asked OH to move out. We've been arguing a HELL of a lot just lately so we both agreed this is for the best for now . . Its not the be all and end all but we're both happier when not around each other

Also, my "other" mum (its complicated - she's not related to me at all but she's like my second mum) Has been taken into a hospice to spend her last few weeks in peace. She's accepted it, shes refusing treatment (it wont cure her, just prolong her life) and although every part of me is screaming because she's giving in, i understand why she's doing what she is (she's in her 60's, her husband has just turned 84) and I'll be there to support her. Its strange because i dont think of her as dying, I know deep down she is, but in my mind i see her coming home and us having a natter in her living room.

I was supposed to go and see a private counsellor yesterday but because theres been so much change i cancelled the appointment, I wanted to talk to her about the problems me and J was havign but since we decided to have a bhreak it isnt really relevant at the moment and i dont really want to talk to someone about my other mum just yet, will make it seem too real and im not ready for that right now.

ANYWAY

Its nearly lunch time (nothing spectacular - half a tin of chicken soup and two slices of bread lol) I'm a size 12 now - just need to try and flatten my stomach a bit now! :(

Take care everyone, hope your all ok xx